Aubrey's 1st sleepover

My baby is at her 1st sleepover tonight. She has only stayed the night with my mom and my sister but never with anyone else. I am happy she is having fun but so sad she is growing up so fast. She is staying with some friends from church. We had bible study with them sunday and she told us she wanted to stay at ms. sara's house so sara agreed she could stay friday. Aubrey has asked me all week if today is the day she gets to stay with sara ...lol.
~Nichole

Easter 2011

We had the best easter this year ! We went to church then went to a friend's house for a crawfish boil. The girls had fun playing with all the kids & the egg hunting. The adults ate , talked then shot skeet. Have you ever done that ? Someone flings this clay thing in the air & you try to shoot it. It was my first time to do this & my first time to shoot a gun. Needless to say I missed all mine. I felt very blessed to be surrounded by my family & friends.

this sucks !!!

I am so sad right now .... The agency we signed up for called me today to tell me that we aren't eligible to foster/adopt because of Mike's criminal record !! (nothing major but stupid enough to have them deny us ) I am so mad right now and I feel like devil is winning this journey at the moment. I know God is in control but really ?!? All we want is to add to our family and can't catch a break. IS this God telling me that we are complete the way we are ?

This news comes at a time where I am having my own struggles within myself... I really want to stay home with my kids but I've been @ the same job for 13 years !!! and i make decent money so it will have to be a complete lifestyle change in order for me to do that but I am willing to scarifice that in order to be there for my kids ... You know when you were a little girl & you dreamed about what you were going to be when you grew up ?? Well I always dreamed about being a mom... strange ?? yes I know but I always knew that I wanted to have kids & get married ... those are my dreams & now that I am happily married to the man of my dreams & have those daughters I always wanted I just want to be there for them !!! I feel like I am missing out of my baby girl doing so much cause I have to work. They are only small for such a short time and I want to enjoy it. I can go back to work when they grow up & move out !!! Lol !! So now I am trying to figure out how to make my dreams come true .............

Devil - Your not gonna win cause I believe that God will take care of me & my family so can you please go away now ???

~Nichole

New Plans ........

Ok .. Let's be honest !! Infertility sucks and having to spend tons of money and give yourself shots everyday ... dr apointments... scans... blood tests.... and then still getting a - on a pregnancy test sucks even worse cause then you feel like " Why doesn't your body want to work with you ??" So .....

Mike & I have decided we are going to adopt. Actually we are going to do foster adoption . We are sooo blessed and all we want is to add to our family so since my body isn't working with me we are taking a new course to add to our family. We signed up with an agency in Conroe called Homes4Good ( www.homes4good.org) and we have started taking all the classes and are in the process of getting ALL the paperwork together. We should be done with the classes by May or possibly June at the latest then we will have a homestudy done and then the waiting game begins. We are doing foster/ foster to adopt which means we will foster any child but if the right child comes along that is free to adopt and we fit as a family we will have the 1st chance to adopt the child.

I am what your thinking ... your never gonna be able to give up a child cause you will fall in love with them . Yes.... your most likely right about us falling in love but think about it this way .... We can love a child for 6 months and maybe those 6 months made a diffrence in his/her life where they felt our love and was touched by our family compared to not ever been placed in our home and not knowing what love felt like. We know it is going to be hard but somethings are worth go even if your heart gets broken !!! Our triplets taught us that !!!

So ...... please pray for us as we go on this journey because it is going to be one hell of a roller coaster ride but a fun one !!!

~Nichole

new plan ...

We have new plan for our journey for another child ......... more details coming next week .....

but I will leave you with a cute picture of our girls ..........

~Nichole

Help me reach my goal!Sponsor Me at March for Babies!

Team Mackenzie Noelle

I have a friend Ashley ,who I first met by reading her blog , who put together a team for the march of dimes walk in April in honor of her daughter Mackenzie who was stillborn last June and I am going to be part of it !!! Ashley and I started talking through our blogs because we both have lost babies.. what a crappy way to meet.... yes I know , but I'm so glad we did meet cause she is an amazing woman !!! Later while we were emailing each other she realized we both work for the same bank. She works in our operations dept in The Woodlands and of course I'm in a branch. I am so excited to be part of her team so I want to help her raise some money .... so will you help me help her ??? I set a goal of $100 for myself to raise. You can donate by going to this link :
http://www.marchforbabies.org/nkoval

and Ashley is also doing a giveaway .... you can read about it here

http://mackenziesmama.blogspot.com/2010/03/giveaway-for-march-of-dimes-team.html

Thanks for your support for this WONDERFUL cause !!!

~Nichole